LIVING A SOBER LIFE
Let’s face it—sobriety isn’t always easy. Although it is extremely rewarding, if we are being completely honest, sometimes it can be hard. On the same note, being a parent isn’t always easy either, and although it is also extremely rewarding, sometimes being a mom can be really hard too.
One of the hardest realities to face when first getting sober is owning up to the mess that was created from an addiction. At the beginning of my recovery, the gravity of my past hit me pretty hard and I wasn’t sure how I was going to move past all of it without drinking.
Making any major life change is a challenge, to say the least. Overcoming an addiction? Well, that can be even more challenging. That’s not to say it isn’t possible—people recover from addiction everyday.
When a person is drinking regularly and using drugs they aren’t very likely to be exercising a whole lot. Between getting high or drunk and going through withdrawal or having a hangover it’s a little difficult to make time for a good work out here and there.
Before coming to Narconon my life was in liability. I was drinking heavily on a day-in and day-out basis. I spent twenty-three years of my life hiding behind a bottle. I used every excuse to drink. If I couldn’t find an excuse, I would drink anyway…
Early recovery feels like a whirlwind of fluctuating emotions. The rollercoaster of learning how to live life without the use of drugs or alcohol can be pretty intense. It can be easy to fall into the trap of self-pity and ingratitude.
If I could talk to someone who is currently in the position I was in, I would say that “I know the moment seems dark, but there is hope around the corner if you are strong enough to ask for help. It’ll seem as if you’ve lost everything but you have your life and people who care about you. If you have a child, just know that you may be sacrificing spending time with them right now, but in the end, it’ll be worth it to be fully aware and really be there with them.”
During active addiction, people usually do not take very good care of themselves. Although addiction can cause a person to come off as selfish to others, they are not truly doing what is in their own best interest, but rather, what is in the best interest of fulfilling their addiction.
Seven years ago I made a decision that would entirely change the course of my life. I decided to get help for my addiction and to make a serious effort to change my life. I was sick of living a life of active addiction and tired of hating myself for it.
I’ve heard this time and time again from people and it is usually in the context of somebody trying to downplay their unhealthy relationship with alcohol. Sometimes people will try to defend their drinking by saying they aren’t an alcoholic and they can stop any time they want.